Blurred Lines Read online

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Blurred Lines | ~ a Novella ~ | by | Tamsyn Bester

  Please Note

  Blurred Lines (The Line Between 1.5)

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  Prologue | Reid | November

  Chapter 1 | Jade | March

  Chapter 2 | Jade | Cabo

  Chapter 3 | Jade | The Pool

  Chapter 4 | Reid | The Hotel Room, Cabo

  Chapter 5 | Jade | Little Feet

  Chapter 6 | Jade | I’m gonna love her for both of us

  Chapter 7 | Reid | Let Her Go

  Chapter 8 | Reid | Catch My Breath

  Chapter 9 | Jade | You stupid man

  Chapter 10 | Reid | I’d Rather Fight With Her, Than Love Anyone Else

  Chapter 11 | Jade | “Damn straight it’s my kid.”

  Chapter 12 | Reid | “When are you going to realize that I don’t want to be just the father of your baby?”

  Chapter 13 | Jade | You’re the man I can’t envision my future without

  Chapter 14 | Reid | Forever Wouldn’t Be Long Enough

  May

  Chapter 15 | Jade | You love me, but I want to feel like you want me

  Chapter 16 | Reid | “Welcome home, baby.”

  Chapter 17 | Reid | 28 Weeks

  Jade

  Chapter 18 | Jade | 31 weeks

  Chapter 19 | Reid

  Chapter 20 | Jade | Siempre, Mi Amor

  Chapter 21 | Reid | 33 Weeks

  Chapter 22 | Reid | I was doing this for her, and for the safety of our unborn child.

  Jade

  Chapter 23 | Reid | 38 Weeks

  Chapter 24 | Jade | 2 Months Later...

  Chapter 25 | Jade | Daddy Really Wants To Practice Making Your Brother...

  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  Blurred Lines

  ~ a Novella ~

  by

  Tamsyn Bester

  Please Note

  Blurred Lines is a novella written for the two supporting characters from The Line Between – Jade and Reid. It spans over the period of a few months, as you will notice in the Chapter headings. This novella has been written for the enjoyment of the reader and not necessarily for review purposes. All medical facts have been verified, and are stated to be true.

  Blurred Lines (The Line Between 1.5)

  Copyright © 2015 by Tamsyn Bester

  Cover Design by © S.K Hartley

  PHOTO COPYRIGHT © Dollar Photo Club

  Editing by Emma Mack of Tink's Typos

  All rights reserved.

  Without limiting the rights under copyright reserved above, no part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise) without the prior written permission of both the copyright owner and the above publisher of this book.

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, brands, media, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. The author acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of various products referenced in this work of fiction, which have been used without permission. The publication/ use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners.

  This eBook is licensed for your personal use only. This eBook may not be re-sold or given away to other people. If you would like to share this book with another person, please purchase an additional copy for each person you share it with. If you are reading this book and did not purchase it, or it was not purchased for your use only, then you should return it and purchase your own copy. Thank you for respecting the author’s work.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  I just want to send a shout out to the following people –

  Sofie Hartley (better known as S.K Hartley), who did the cover for me, THANK YOU <3 Emma Mack, my editor, thank you for sacrificing so much of your time with your family for me, and Blurred Lines. To Tash Drake (Book Lit Love), Leanne Pearson, Summer Clark (Summer’s Book Blog) and Tammy Tru Blue, who all provided some feedback as I wrote this book in record time. You all played an invaluable part in keeping me going when I ran out of steam. To my two nurse Beta’s, Susan Davis Provorse, and Sirenda McNece, thank you for answering all my medical questions, I would have botched it up royally had it not been for your professional opinions ;)

  Special thanks go out to my #SoulSister across the pond, Jodi Bibliophile, who I have been incredibly blessed to meet. Our daily emails mean so much to me, and I’m grateful to have found you. Never lose that foul mouth of yours, or your passion for books – that will be a sad day.

  And of course, to the readers who fell in love with Jade and Reid while they read The Line Between and demanded I finish their book – THANK YOU for being so patient, and understanding while I finished Blurred Lines. It hasn’t been easy, but your support has meant so much to me.

  I hope I haven’t left anyone out, and if I have, I apologize <3

  I hope you enjoy Blurred Lines <3

  Tamsyn

  Prologue

  Reid

  November

  Jade stared at me with her chocolate brown eyes, red and slightly puffy, and I fought the natural inclination to wrap her in my arms. We’d been friends all our lives, and she was always the one constant in my life when everything else seemed uncertain. But for the past few months, the dynamic of our relationship had changed, and it terrified the hell out of me. It went from being playful to sexual, sedate to intense, calm to electrical, and we were both fumbling around in the proverbial dark trying to figure out what it meant for our friendship.

  “I want you to kiss me, Reid, like you did the first time weeks ago when you couldn’t fight this,” – she gestured between the two of us – “any more than I could.”

  We were standing in her family’s Villa in Barcelona, and she was a mess after her grandmother’s funeral. I’d come with her because I knew how hard it was going to be, and I couldn’t not be here if my girl needed me.

  My girl.

  I’d been thinking of her that way for a while now, if only in my head.

  “Jade, I - ” I hesitated, rubbing my hands down my face. She wasn’t thinking clearly, and I was aware of that, which was why, giving into her, was a terrible idea. Once I kissed her, I would be tempted to do more, and the last thing I wanted was for her to think I was taking advantage of her vulnerable state. Because that’s exactly what she was.

  Vulnerable.

  Split wide open.

  Showing me everything.

  “Please,” she begged softly, the hitch in her voice causing my chest to ache. She was hurting, and I wanted to do what I could to help her through it.

  I ran my eyes down her body, and my body reacted the way it always had when I saw her. Something deep inside me stirred, and it was so much more than just lust. It was a fierce need to have her, to claim her...to love her.

  And God did I love her.

  So much.

  But what would happen if I acted on it?

  My fear of losing her far outweighed my physical need to be with her, and as far as my emotional need went to tell her how much I cared about her, I wasn’t sure if our friendship would stay the same if I did.

  I stepped closer to her, resting my hand on the back of her neck, and pressed our foreheads together.

  It was dark outside, but I could see the plea on her face, in her eyes. I wanted to give her the world, but I was waging a war on the inside because what she was asking of me right now, in this rare, unguarded moment was so much more than that.

  “If I kiss you,” I breathed, “There’s no going back. We will never be the same, and that scares me.”

&
nbsp; “It scares me too,” she replied. “But what scares me more is going to bed in the next room without knowing what this would have felt like. With you.”

  The ‘this’ she was referring to was more than a kiss, because we wouldn’t be able to stop there. Neither of us wanted to, but we had to be mindful of how it would impact the twenty years we’d been friends.

  It was inconceivable to think that she’d been in my life that long, but our mothers were pregnant together, gave birth to us days apart, and our fathers had been best friends since high school. Her life was inextricably woven with mine, and her presence had always grounded me.

  I had a feeling it would all change after tonight.

  I wasn’t ready.

  We weren’t ready.

  But it was bound to happen, the same as the sun was meant to rise, and set every day.

  “Are you sure?” I asked. Part of me was hoping she’d realize it was a bad idea, that our friendship wouldn’t last if things changed so drastically, but the other part wanted to know that she wanted this as much as I did.

  “I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life,” she replied.

  That confirmation alone made my body hum with anticipation.

  I pressed my lips to hers, gentle at first, and then our tongues met, and the rest came as naturally to me as breathing.

  Every touch.

  Every whimper.

  Every inhalation.

  Every exhalation.

  I breathed her in. Her scent, her sounds, and the way her back bowed when my hands roamed her naked body. It was cool, a light breeze coming through the balcony doors, but the humidity coated her golden skin with a light sheen of sweat and I licked up the salty taste with fervor. Her body opened up for me, welcoming me home and I struggled with my restraint, shaking as I held myself above her.

  “Reid,” she sighed, moving her hips and gripping my hard cock inside her. “You don’t have to be gentle. I won’t break.”

  No, but I will.

  I captured her lips with mine, and started moving. Her body gave itself over to me, as mine did to her, and for that brief, but intense, sliver of time I didn’t worry about where it left our hearts, where it left my heart. I gave in, I surrendered, and when the sun rose the following morning, Jade was nowhere to be found.

  I was right.

  Things changed after that.

  And I knew neither of us would ever recover.

  I’d lost my best friend.

  Chapter 1

  Jade

  March

  I walked into the apartment that I shared with my closest girlfriend Kennedy, and stifled a sigh when I found her playing tonsil hockey with her boyfriend, Dane. I’d had a rough day, and I wasn’t really in the mood to watch them dry hump on our sofa.

  “Hey.”

  Kennedy’s head whipped up at the sound of my voice, and she scrambled off Dane’s lap. “Hey. I wasn’t expecting you home so early.”

  “Yeah,” I snorted. “I see that.”

  Dane ducked his head, and Kennedy muttered “sorry” as her cheeks reddened.

  “It’s fine,” I said, walking to my bedroom. “Just put a sock on the door next time so I’m prepared.” I winked to let her I know I was teasing, and tried to squelch the pang of envy seeing her with Dane brought to the surface. I was happy for her, for them both. After the hell they had been through to find each other, they deserved it. But lately I’d been feeling as though life was taunting me with the things I wanted, but didn’t have. And I was tired of it.

  I threw my bag onto the floor, and placed my sketch bag on my desk. I was in my third year at Brighton University studying a Bachelor of Science in Design, with the hopes of being a fashion designer. I had a knack for drawing, and had been sewing most of my own clothes from the age of sixteen, when my parents bought me my own sewing machine for my birthday.

  I loved my classes, but more importantly it was the only thing I felt was going right in my life. I could control the outcome of this one small element of my world, which is exactly what I had been doing since everything had fallen out from under me last November.

  I was exhausted, but fortunately it was already spring break, and I was looking forward to having a few days off.

  “You okay?” Kennedy asked walking into my room. I sat down on my bed with a tired sigh, and replied, “Fine. Just feeling a little worn out.”

  Kennedy smiled, and took a seat beside me. “I know what you mean. I’m so excited for our trip to Cabo. It’s the break we all need.”

  Right. We were flying to Cabo in the morning, and I had to tell myself repeatedly that I was just as excited to be spending a few days on the beach. Truthfully speaking, I was kind of dreading it.

  “It will be good,” I said, trying – and failing – to sound marginally enthusiastic.

  “Are you sure you’re okay? You haven’t been quite like yourself these past few weeks.” I looked up, and wanted to cringe when I saw Kennedy’s expression filled with concern and sympathy.

  “I’m good,” I lied. “It’s just been a little hectic, and I really am tired.” That part wasn’t a lie. I was more tired than usual, and I’d been feeling more emotional too. I shrugged it off though, claiming it was hormones, and ‘that time of the month’.

  Kennedy let out a breath, and watched me with her knowing green eyes. She knew what had me feeling out of sorts, but I was grateful when she didn’t say it.

  “We’re going to dinner tonight, you want to come?” She asked, changing topics.

  “Who’s going?”

  She bit her lip, nibbling on it nervously. It was one of her tells, and I knew I wasn’t going to like her answer, despite knowing exactly what she was going to say.

  “Me and Dane, obviously, and I think Chase, and Ash will be there too. Grady is also going...” her words trailed off, leaving the rest for me to finish. “And Reid, and Stella.”

  She looked away from me, and I hated that she felt sorry for me when she had no reason to. Reid was my best friend, but things had changed drastically in the past few months that I wasn’t even sure he was that anymore. He felt more like a stranger these days.

  But I suspect that had more to do with his girlfriend and her dislike for me, than him actively staying away from me.

  “I think I’m going to chill at home tonight,” I said, standing up. “Maybe watch a movie, or read a book. I could do with an early night.”

  I started removing some of my clothes from my closet, and packing them into my suitcase.

  “You don’t have to avoid them every time we hang out,” said Kennedy. “I will vagina punch that bitch if she tries anything with you.”

  I snickered. “You know I can handle that Hobbit just fine. I was actually just want to chill out before our trip.”

  Going to dinner with Reid and his girlfriend, Stella – aka the Hobbit – was as appealing as getting a pap smear, and something I could avoid. Going to Mexico with them for a week however wasn’t as easy to escape. Kennedy had begged me relentlessly for the month of January and I said yes because I could deal with Reid for that amount of time. But then he became ‘Reid and Stella’, and it was too late for me to pull out. Hence, I couldn’t get out of it.

  “What must I tell Reid? You know he’s going to ask about where you are.”

  Kennedy was right. We might have drifted apart, but Reid still cared. Much to Stella’s disgruntlement.

  “Tell him I’m not feeling well,” I said. It was kind of true, so at least I didn’t have to ask Kennedy to lie. “He’ll see me tomorrow so it shouldn’t be a big deal.”

  With a heavy sigh, Kennedy wrapped her arms around me, and rested her head on my shoulder. “I wish I could fix whatever happened between the two of you. I miss the ‘Jade and Reid’ show.”

  I felt the familiar ache in my chest, and ignored it the same way I’d been forced to when Reid had started to distance himself. It wasn’t all Stella’s fault though. It was mine too and part of my problem was copin
g with the guilt it made me feel.

  “I don’t think it can be fixed,” – I tried, but only ended up making things worse – “but I’m getting over it. I’m happy if Reid is happy.”

  I could tell Kennedy didn’t believe the ‘I’m getting over it’ part, and sadly I didn’t either. He’d been part of my life from the moment we were born, and I felt his absence. Every. Damn. Day. But he’d moved on, and I had to live with it.

  “You know he’s not happy, Jade. He misses you. I have no idea what he sees in that girl. She’s nothing but a glorified dancing Hobbit.”

  I laughed, picturing a hobbit in a tutu, and rested my head against Kennedy’s. “You only hate her because she’s bff’s with Amy.”

  “And because she’s pretty much told Reid he’s to have nothing to do with you, and he actually listens to her.”

  Yeah, I didn’t want to talk about them anymore.

  I patted Kennedy’s arm, and made an effort to smile at her. “Go and enjoy your dinner, and if you and Dane come back here, make sure you keep the noise down.”

  She blushed, and let out a giggle. “I’ll make sure we go to his place if we wanna...you know.”

  “Good idea,” I laughed. “Maybe you and Stella can have a screaming competition.”

  Kennedy scrunched her nose. “Ew. I don’t want to know what a hobbit sounds like having sex. But I think we’ll come home afterwards anyway, our flight is quiet early.”

  I nodded, and placed my luggage on the floor at the foot of my bed. “I was just kidding. I’ll probably be passed out cold when you guys get back.”

  Kennedy started walking backwards towards my door, and said, “Call me if you need me, okay?”

  “I will.”

  Kennedy left, and my smile slipped. I was feeling a little raw inside, thinking about Reid and how much I pined for him. There was only one way I could forget about it long enough expel the feelings burning in my chest.

  I took my sketchpad from my desk, and started drawing.

  I’D JUST MANAGED to fall asleep when I heard my bedroom door opening. It was just past midnight, and I wondered why Kennedy would be checking in on me at this time. Only it wasn’t Kennedy.